Finals Chronicles of a Struggling Grad Student: Day 2

The definition of failing. The only things I actually did was grading and as much as I love my students, that will definitely not get me an A in any of my classes this semester.

At about 11pm I convinced myself that I should go home and go to sleep early then wake up at 445am. Now before you just say that it is impossible, I've done it multiple times this semester and have been successful. However, last night was not that night. My alarm rang and I remember waking up and starting to do work, I outlined the paper due Monday and seemed frustrated and confused. Next thing I know the scene changes and a number of disconcerting things are happening around me with those that I care most about. I wont go into the gory details but the main point is that I WAS SLEEPING. Things felt so real. I ended up waking up at 640 am pissed and really flustered. I felt like I hadn't slept at all so I somehow convinced myself to stay in bed until about 740AM.

Now its way past the time I had envisioned waking up and I still wasn't prepared to lead class at 930AM.  Big problem? Nope. It was a final exam review and I was allowed to quickly go through main topics without prepping much. This led to having to work until 5PM. Grabbing dinner and then logging my failed attempts at being productive now.

Let's hope this night is more productive. Tomorrow we have a class project/community engagement to take part in from 11 - 2 which means I'll be unproductive from 10 - 3. AHHHHHH. Ok ... Had to freak out for a second. I am lucid again.

Grind attempt #2 commences now ...

Finals Chronicles of a Struggling Grad Student: Day 1

I don't think anyone would believe the hell I'm about to endure (all of my own doing - procrastination is the devil) within the next few days. Since I have been completely ghost in the past few months I decided to reward all of my friends and family with some real life humor, at my expense.

It's Thursday April 28th at 9:30 PM. I just got to the library after pretending to nap although my mind was racing and unable to focus on sleep. I drive to Starbucks and get a tall Caramel Macchiato using 6 out of the 14 dollars left in my bank account). Don't know why I couldn't make my own coffee. I decided I wanted to be bougie.

I made an impossible to do list for the night but here it goes

10 - 11PM: Grade Student Papers
11 - 12 PM: Write 4 page journal response
12 - 1AM: Continue working on journal response
1 - 2AM: Finish Creating students final exam
2 - 3AM: Prepare Review for Final exam (to be delivered tomorrow morning at 9:30AM)
3 - 4 AM: Continue grading papers
4 - 7 AM: Sleep
7AM on ... - continue with my life of torture (again all of my own doing)

I figure writing it out to the world will keep my accountable. Keep reading in the next few days I'm sure things will get more entertaining as I go in and out of states of delirium.